Its 2am in the morning and I am wide awake...am intrigued...by death...Do people ever think of how they would like to end their lives??? Do you ever have any fascination for a certain modus operandi for your own death? I never knew I did!
The idea of a free fall has always intrigued me...falling from a cliff...a real high cliff... all you have to do is just let yourself loose...arms outstretched...legs apart...that primordial posture... n you just go down... Down! Down! Down!
Carefree... numb...when time seems eternity...or may be a moment! All you can see, is perhaps the cliff. The tip from where you started (that is, if you want to spoil the reverie by opening your eyes!) transcending the realms of reality ,you just descend into the euphoria of nothingness...the freedom of un-belonging... and you just go down...down! down! Down!
Resigned on life... un-loved life...totally...absolutely! but this resignation is not shrouded by despair... it ensues from contentment...a happy heart..a satisfied soul...who has lived through this world, and is now looking forward to the next... perhaps a higher world...perhaps not...will find out!
And so, you don’t dread hitting the ground...reality is lost on you, remember? The epiphany has gone past. The physicality of it is only a consequence. The blows that life has dealt to you are perhaps too hard-hitting to make you conscious of this one. The stupor of the soul can no more be broken... I just go down... down! Down! Down!
Oh! For that contentment! This life!
That fulfilment! I yearn for this experience...
6 comments:
there aint no better life... a few seconds of free fall... you open your eyes too late... you dont hear the thud... it is all soaked up... you cease to exist... no sounds, no scents, no sights, no words... you cease to feel... you cease to be human and breathe... wonder whether the fall was worth it after all....
m not yearning for the fall...not even awaiting it... i just lust 4 that life that would ensue this contentment...sweeten the inevitability of the fall... :)
the moment the attempt is the moment of the final doubt: what if I don't die?
nice post.
and i liked god's comment
its so stephanie meyer stuff...
hmmm ..if u still hv ur dream abt dis ..
wait 4 me .. i ll take u 4 a free-falling session, try experiencing all d above !!!
if u r still in one piece aftr dat ... we can try again !!
the destination is what is never desired for, its the journey that satisfies us... the destination, the epiphany is always devastating... ARABY remains ideal until it happens...
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